Grey Liliy's Journal

Disclaimer: I'm dirt tired. I tried to go to bed a while ago and I'm still awake and it sucks. I saw a major spoiler for My Hero Academia (that well, everyone and their mother guessed already so is it that big of a spoiler? Anyway. I have thoughts and I'm going to type them here because I started to post it on Discord, immediately regretted it and deleted it. And I'm not touching Tumblr or Twitter with these thoughts.

Too tired to deal with anything else.

But I have a Dreamwidth Blog with minimal readers.

It is a safe place for these tired thoughts.

Ahem. There are spoilers below the "Read More."

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It continues to baffle me that A Mate's Worth has nearly 7.000 Kudos.

It's ruined my sense of what a "normal" amount of kudos for a work should be. XD 

But on the flip side, I'm still excited that Izuku vs The Garden Boy broke 2,000 kudos, because that was my first...real venture into OC x Main Character territory and it was a success. o-o

Stolen Heartbeats on Archive of Our Own or Fanfiction.net
Rated T (M on FFnet for being right on the line).
My Hero Academia
Izuku Midoriya x Katsuki Bakugou (BakuDeku) Vampire AU

Summary: Izuku impressed the wrong person and he now must live on with the consequences. But for every benefit to his new life, a curse follows close behind. Izuku finds himself with new choices he never thought he’d need to make.

Worse yet, his time in his old life is counting down and Izuku must decide his future path (and whether or not to take the person he cares about most with him).

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Content of Original Tumblr Post, February 4, 2019 at 9:57pm:

I’m not going to rehash my long notes on the fic here, but long story short:

I wanted a new Long Fic to work on now that A Mate’s Worth is done and put a bunch of things into a Random Number Generator to get my prompt.

And I got a Vampire AU. Lol.

So far, so good though and I’m looking forward to working on it. :D

Wish me luck though, because one of the prompts was “Mutual Pining” for BakuDeku and that’ll be a thing for me (I write a lot of one-sided stuff…).

Either way, enjoy the drama! :D

#I love Vampires #so this worked out in my favor #when it really comes down to it. #So much fun.

Red Vests on Archive of Our Own
Rated T
My Hero Academia
Mr. Compress x Kurogori, Fluff & Drunken Flirting

Summary: Sako is drunk, Kurogiri is a flirt, and they both have different opinions on Kurogiri’s latest fashion choice.

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Content of Original Tumblr Post, January 14, 2019 at 4:52pm:

A little gift for the amazing rothinsel !

Well, I say gift. But she draws me stuff so it’s more of a trade. Lol.

Either way, she wanted some flirting Compress with Kurogiri and I delivered in a cute little short fic. :D

Izuku vs the Garden Boy on Fanfiction.net or Archive of Our Own
Rated T (M on FFnet for suggested sexual content)
My Hero Academia
Katsuki Bakugou x OC & Katsuki Bakugou x Izuku Midoriya, Humor & Drama

Summary: Kacchan’s dating a boy without a Quirk and Izuku’s never wanted to punch a good person so badly in his life.

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The above fic is my first major, serious project for an OC x a Canon character and I figured this was as good a time as any to share it here.

Why you ask? This:

I was sitting there browsing my reading page and saw The Importance of Self-Inserts by mllemusketeer and it made me think about my own relationship with OCs and how they've changed over the years.

Honestly, I sort of avoided them for a while and when I did include them in my own fics, they were always support characters to push the plot along. They were never main characters, or in the one time where I did venture into making a main character OC it was because I didn't have a canon character equivalent to do what I wanted.**

And then I discovered the Life in Glass Houses series by Blueskyscribe and I adored their TF OCs. To death. I loved the main character ones. I totally supported the shipping of those OC characters x the canon ones & even had a (short lived) RP blog for one of them. It was one of the first times I found original characters that didn't feel like they were shoved in or out of place and it entirely changed my opinion on OC characters.

I dabbled a little bit with OCs after that in Transformers myself (I had a lot of robot babies & I had the Twins Low Gear & High Gear for the Cliffs of Delph series I was RP'ing with Rothinsel), but they were still pretty contained to AU land.

Then the My Hero Academia bug bit and I needed a third person for a Love Triangle AU I wanted to write and BAM. My first shameless OC x Main Character Fic.

And people liked it. I was blown away by how many people were rooting for the OC by the end of the fic and it was the first time that it hit me that feelings toward OCs were changing.

I have a friend who pretty much only reads and writes OC x Canon character fics and pairings for fandoms she's in and it's fun to see how much things has changed.

The stigma is still there, but it's fun to see it slowly drift away.

And it makes me want to do a sequel to the above fic where Daiki (the OC) gets his man back. Lol. I felt bad for breaking up his relationship by the end of it. XD

He's not a self insert, but he deserves some love. :P

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**As I was writing all of this it did occur to me there was a point in time where I did have a shameless Self Insert Character (It was a character I designed to be "Liliy" with like teal hair) that I used as myself you can still find around my old DA stuff. Lol. I had a whole story arc with a Digimon partner and a crush on Ken from the second series and all that fun embarrassing stuff. I keep forgetting about it because I keep forgetting about that entire period of my life despite having a website dedicated to it.

I digress. The point is, everyone did it. It's fun. No need to pick on people who do it.

Tears and Burnt Skin on Archive of Our Own
Rated M
My Hero Academia
Bakugou Katsuki x Midoriya Izuku, Sort of.

Summary: A moment of relaxation and play turns to terror when emotions grow too strong and Katsuki can’t stop.

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Well, I finally wrote something where I felt kinda obligated to add the "Dead Dove: Do Not Eat" tag.

I have no idea how I feel about this fic. Lol. It was a request and I think it turned out pretty well, but it also reminds me I have no idea how to rate things. It's kinda intense but it's not really that graphic, so I guess "M" is a good fit.

I think this is my first straight up one-on-one death fic, though.

Anyway, long story short: This is one of the side prizes for that Fic Trivia Question thing I did where the winner got a fic request. The requester was Kady and they asked for Katsuki putting his hand down Izuku’s throat and choking him to death.

So that's what I wrote. More or less. *throws confetti* I varied the theme a bit, but the general "Katsuki chokes Izuku to death" is still there, thus the "Dead Dove" tag. It's exactly what it says on the tin. XD

 I just read an amazing Hawks/Endeavor series and I was only able to because the Author Orphaned it instead of deleting it.

Every time I see a "This has been deleted. Sorry!" message in my AO3 bookmarks I instantly regret that I didn't keep better notes in my bookmarks to figure out what fic was lost or that I didn't download a copy of it.

"Bad" fics, unfinished fics, great fics that were removed from peer pressure--I feel an ache in my chest every time I see one disappear. It always feels like such a loss to see stories and literature disappear, even if it only had one reader.

I've started to get better about saving copies of fanfics I really love, but there's such a long back log of bookmarks (on AO3 and my old internet browsers) that I'm not sure I'd ever get through all of them. Heh.

But for now, I'm thankful for the orphan account option and that I got to read an amazing series today. (Though I do regret that it doesn't create a separate Orphan account for each user. I want to read more of their stuff.)

Earn It Back on Fanfiction.net or Archive of Our Own
Rated T
My Hero Academia
Gen Fic

Summary: All for One is a cruel master, but Kurogiri serves him as best as he can—no matter what the circumstances. However, his Master’s latest punishment may push Kurogiri to his limits.

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Content of Original Tumblr Post, December 9, 2018 at 2:02am:

A gift fic for the amazing rothinsel!

She wanted some Kurogiri love (specifically Kurogiri x AfO) and I..ended up not really doing that. This went in it’s own direction, so I technically owe her some love for the actual prompt, but it was fun to play with the characters for a one shot first as a warm up.

Enjoy!

#I think it turned out pretty well