Grey Liliy's Journal

There is something very fun and satisfying about updating a fanfic that hasn't seen an updated in years. XD

Earlier I updated Cade, an old Teen rated SpikeBee Transformers: Shattered Glass fanfic that's old enough that it's on both Fanfiction.net and AO3.

Though in this particular case, I've had the chapter handwritten for a while (like...a year?) and forgot about it. LOL.

As much as I love my new system of handwriting chapters first and then typing them later, it does mean I have a lot of things sitting that are probably ready to be typed...that I haven't.

Writing it out by hand tricks my brain into thinking it's "done" and then I forget about it.

Oops.

But, the final quality is better because I edit as I type and that end result is usually worth being scatterbrained about what I have and haven't finished up. XD

I now know why a server I am in is on its death throes.

I want to go back to when I had just assumed everyone was busy. T-T

When you want to do your part and comment on fanfiction to make up for the dramatic drop in reader interactions over the years, but also nothing on your "To Comment" list looks like something you want to read at the moment.

Makes for a frustrating time. I have over 900 AO3 bookmarks. Half of those have "To Comment" on the bookmark tags. The material is there.

But it's like when you're hungry and you open the fridge and nothing looks good. There's food there. There's food in the cabinets. But you just...don't want any of it.

So I'm just sitting here anxious and aggravated because I want to get out there and comment to make up for my own desire to click the "refresh button" over and over to see if my fics have any new comments, but I'm just.

Not doing it.

Makes me want to scream a little. Ah, fun time in fandom.

*metaphorically puts head on desk and covers it with arms*

With Fairly OddParents: A New Wish hitting Netflix, there are more fans: Yay!

But that also means more drama. Lol. Already not looking forward to that (especially since the server I'm in for FOP has gotten very quiet t-t).

The topic on my mind at the moment is a few Tumblr posts I've seen complaining about people making more fan content for Peri and Dev and what not over the main character Hazel.

I can't speak for anyone else, but most of the fun of fan works is being transformative.

The entire show is about Hazel and her working through her issues and problems and life.

If I want content about Hazel, I'll just...watch the show?

It's the same reason I don't often write about canon couples in my shipping. Ex, in Hazbin Hotel--I love Charlie and Vaggie, but they're the canon pairing in the show. In fandom, it's more fun to explore Charlastor and what not.

Meanwhile, Peri and Dev are the characters who have issues not fully explored by the show. Peri is a legacy character with a lot of background from the original show that can get tied into the plot. His relationship with Dev in the show isn't great, so it's comforting to write fluff (or even more angst).

I want to explore his relationship with Irep.

There's just more to think about and tackle with Peri and Dev.

Hazel's an amazing character and I love her, but I have no idea what to write about when it comes to her. Lol.

Anyway, those are my random thoughts for the moment I wanted to share but no longer wish to post on places like Tumblr or Bluesky where drama can happen. XD

 I may have made a mistake crossposting things.

Because I'm looking back and seeing that I have only a select few Fanfic crossposted....out of hundreds.

I only have a handful of Tumblr posts crossposted...out of thousands.

My "ALL OR NOTHING" internal anxiety is now like "What do."

Because I am not going through the mass crossposting again. And deciding "what's good enough to double and fill out my Dreamwidth Journal" and "What can I leave on Tumblr" are competing in my head.

Followed by "Because you backdated posts, your first Dreamwidth Blog post is now no longer the first post if someone goes all the way to the end."

AND THEN while reading the Latest page and seeing everyone's daily activity journal entries I'm super nostalgic for the Live Journal days when I used it for near exclusively a journal. And I miss that. Despite having two physical journals next to me (one for daily things and one for venting). 

Which all just results in internal screaming. Lol.

P.S. AND SPEAKING of Live Journal nostalgia...I need more icons. T-T

Edit: I've added some icons. Makes me feel better. XD

It has occurred to me one of the reasons I don't post in communities as much is because those posts aren't cross-posted to my main journal and I fear losing track of them.

But that's what Masterposts have always been for, isn't it?

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bkdk (BakuDeku Community)

• Hopping Mad by VampireCheesepuffs (Fanfic Reccomendation)
• Twenty-Four by SharkBaitSekki (Fanfic Recommendation)

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detroitbecomehuman (Detroit: Become Human Fan Community)

• carl's sons (My Fanfiction)

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journalsandplanners (Journal and Planners)

• Undated Daily Planner Recommendation
• First Agendio Planner

I was going to vague post about something that was bothering me, but I remembered I have a journal where I can do that instead.

A win for me.

Saw a post on Tumblr lamenting that Proshippers also like a pairing that they do & want us to stop.

But like. The pairing they were referencing is PERIDALE.

If we use the (albeit wrong) definition of a proshipper being someone who likes "bad" ships, then why wouldn't they love PeriDale?

Dale Dimmadome is a self absorbed, greedy man who neglects his kid. Don't get me wrong, I love exploring his character more and looking for the background that got him there or working out how he may become a better person in the future, but at his core he is not a good man and not in a place to have a healthy relationship with anyone.

Peri liking Dale is also messed up, honestly. It's a huge conflict of interest when his godchild is Dev and Dev should be his 100% priority.

PeriDale can range from OOC to angst becuase Fandom, but if it were canon, they would be an unhealthy mess.

Like. I see this all the time with antis (self proclaimed or not). The hypocricy and lack of self awareness will never stop being absolutely  baffling.

And boy am I glad I can vent here over starting a scene on Tumblr. LOL.

I sort of wish Dreamwidth had a "Like/Love" equivalent for posts.

I know it's more of a social media thing, and typically is used for algorithm stuff, but it's my favorite way to say "I don't have a specific reply to this thing at the moment, but I want you to know that I read it and it wasn't shouted blankly into a void." 

 

The Deep House (2021) is a French film that got a solid "It's all right." from me. I think it was worth watching for the underwater sets and general atmosphere once they reach the house at the bottom of the lake. That part of the film was impressive and I really enjoyed the creepy setting and wondering how much of the house was like that due to the supernatural, or if it was trying to mimic what things would actually do underwater. Ha ha ha.

The ending fell flat for me and a few moments dragged, but I don't regret watching it.

My recommendation would be "Did you like the premise from the summary?" If so, give it a chance. If not, you're probably fine giving this one a pass.

Original Bluesky Live Blog and Mini Review